Last day of mini break

 We had a 5 day weekend this week and this is day #5. Tomorrow I go back to school for 2 days and then we have a regular 3 day weekend. Not a bad work schedule at all. 

When I have long breaks, I fall into a pattern that is not healthy. I get up in the morning, today it was at 5am, I do things. I create. I plan. I just am busy doing things. Once Hubby gets up, I generally stop what I'm doing and visit with him. That is also my signal to get ready for the day. So I will generally shower, dress, walk Mavy, etc. These 5 days it's been kind of cold for an early morning walk. I got up today and it was 38F which is the warmest it's been all weekend. So it's hard to shower and walk the dog when it's so cold out. I will generally push the shower and the walk until it's a little warmer. But then that kind of screws up my whole day. If I don't shower until 9am, then walk him at 10am, it's almost lunch time by then. I know, the thoughts in my head are weird, but I have to consciously work to change them. It's crazy. But I look at the clock and think the whole day is gone, or half the day, and then in my mind it's like, well, why do anything? That's stupid, I know. Completely and totally stupid. But it is what it is. Anyway, so what happens is I work, work, work in the mornings. I slow down, eventually shower, dress, and walk the dog. Then it's, okay what do I do now? By 11am or noon, I'm on the couch on my devices. Yesterday I spent so, so much time scrolling it was terrible. I will sometimes nap, but mostly just lay there until 2 or 3 pm. Then I might get moving again. By the time I go to bed around 8pm, I'm so, so, so tired from not doing anything all day. Then I will sleep really deeply for 2-3 hours and wake up and be half awake for a few hours. UGH!!! Then I finally fall back to sleep again and boom, it's time to get up and start it all over. I don't like this pattern and I need to work to break it. Granted today is the last day of this break, but I need to not do this because then I will feel like crap tomorrow and have a terrible day at school. So I need to do something about this and I need to do it today. No sleeping on the couch today. No laying on the couch until after dinner. I will keep busy with things all day. Thankfully, I do have to go out today. I have not left the house since Friday and that's another thing. Staying in the house for days on end is not good for my mental health, though it is nice. I did walk the canal the last 2 days so yay me!!! But I did not workout yesterday morning, though I did stretch last night. I just need to be consistent. If  I do things the same all the time I won't have these bouts of sleeplessness and I won't feel so crappy. Okay, enough whining. If I don't like the way something is, I just need to change it. Done. 

In other news, I had some ideas yesterday for the cat show I'm doing in 6-8 weeks. If I get my new little printer/cutter, I can make some resin tags and customize them on the spot. I could print/cut the dogs name, then UV resin it on right there. What a great idea. So now I just need my little printer/cutter to ship. Not complaining, just anxious. 

Which means, I really need to get on the making for this cat show. I have not done really anything to prep for it. I did get some cat earring designs, but I'm not a fan of them at all. At. All. Maybe it's just the way I made them, because when I saw them in Etsy they were super cute. Maybe I just don't have the talent to do them justice. And that's real because the designer said she painted them by hand. I'm not a painter. Pens are my thing. Maybe I should work on that today. Get some made and see how they look. I will put them on Instagram for a poll and see what happens. It will keep me busy figuring out what I want to do with these. I could also cut some key holders or leash holders for the show. I also need to make some signs for my booth. I want a social media sign. I want an email list sign. I want a custom order sign. I also might order some new table cloths, the ones I have are yuck. 

Speaking of which, I also have to get my taxes together. I don't want to wait until the last minute like I did last year. So I can start working on that rather than sitting there scrolling. 

Alright, I feel generally better than I did when I started. I just have to fight the desire to lay on the couch and veg early in the day. That is something that happens at night, after dinner.