Step Away From the Cake

 After Tuesday, I have felt much, much better. I was really starting to sink into a depression and I'm glad that I figured it out and was able to deal with it. I'm not over it, but knowledge is power and I'm aware now.  Tomorrow I start taking tirzepatide which is the weight loss drug my doctor recommended. I have a doctor's appointment in the morning and I will tell her I am starting it. Then come home and take it. I've been taking the other peptides for a month and it made me feel good, I'm hoping this will really kick things into high gear. I do have to up my workouts. I have to. I know that they will help increase my energy levels, I'm just going to have to power through and get it done. I do have Friday, Saturday, and Sundays and no reason at all not to workout on those days. So I just have to do it. Starting tomorrow.  I'm going to have to call my cardiologist and have my blood pressure medicine changed. My ankles are swelling and they are getting ...

 I think that is what is going on with me. Let me explain......... I returned to school yesterday and I just did not want to be there. Like big time, not want to be there. Felt like I was done. Just completely and totally done. Got there this morning and it felt even worse. I did not want to be there, I did not want to teach chemistry to apathetic teenagers, no!!! I talked about it with my admin a bit and they are so supportive it's awesome. I told her I didn't want to be here and she said, let's get a sub.... Awesome. But I stuck it out and actually had a good day. At the end of the day I stopped by my admin and told her I had a good day. As we were talking I mentioned that I suffered from depression and it kind of hit me, is that what is happening? Could I be depressed? The more I thought about it, the more I think it is possible. As I look back on break week, I had some symptoms they just didn't register. At the beginning of break, I was very lazy and did not feel li...