There is always going to be something
I was doing something the other day, I don't even remember what, and I heard myself think; well, when I get over this head cold I will do..... That stopped me in my tracks and it hit me, not for the first time but possibly the strongest, there is always going to be something. Always. In the last few months I have said that to myself 1,000 times. When this heart thing is resolved, when the heat goes away, when my knee doesn't hurt, when my head cold is gone. There is always going to be something. Always. So my project is to not let those things stop me from doing what I want and what I know I should be doing. I need to learn to dance in the rain.
I'm going to make myself that sign and hang it everywhere.
It's something I've always known, I guess it just never hit me as hard as it did this week. Life is full of somethings. I just need to stay focused on what I want and what I want to do. And just keep moving forward.
I have started taking tirzepatide. I took my 3rd shot this morning, I take a shot once a week. It has changed my relationship with food and the way I feel about it, I'm wondering if it has changed my relationship with some other things too.
I was trying to explain it to Hubby and it's like you no longer get the dopamine hit from food. There is no food that I see/hear about/smell that makes me go, oh god, I want some of that. I can eat, no problem there, but food doesn't hold the same allure that it once did. It is like all emotions have been removed from food. Do things taste good? Yes. Do I enjoy things? Yes. But there is no emotion around them. They don't elicit fond memories of my childhood or make me feel any special way. The dopamine hit has been removed. As such, I am much more in touch with my feelings of fullness. Since I'm eating strictly for nourishment and not the dopamine hit, I can stop when I am full easily. I get hungry. But any food will satisfy that hunger. Also, I don't get hangry and I can wait to eat.
I'm wondering if it is regulating my feelings about other things. No, I just realized that is not true. I am much more robot like in my work, that's a good thing because I don't let feelings get in the way. But I still have moments where I let my thoughts/feelings dictate what I do. So, no. This has not changed anything else.
I got a full 5 days of YogaBody in this week and I have to say, I really like it. It's 15 minutes in the morning of strength, and some of those are hard. Then 15 minutes of stretching before bed and I'm set. It's been much cooler here so walks have been happening after work. Yeah, I really like it. It does not ask too much of me and yet keeps me going.
Okay, I need to figure out what I'm doing so I'm off.
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