I Don't Care

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 I've been saying that a lot lately. A large part of it has to do with school. I have kids whom I just wish to kill and so by saying I don't care, I kind of remove the emotion from it. It works. I have become a lot more detached this year and that allows me some sanity. I can walk away from an encounter and not relive it all weekend. So it works well there, but I have found it bleeding over into the rest of my life. For a while, I was so motivated to do things and try things and learn things. Now I find myself in a funk that I am really having difficulty getting out of. And once I get into a funk it permeates all areas of my life. I'm not doing the classes I was so interested in. I'm not working on the dog collars I was so interested in learning. I'm not working on my Etsy shop or my Shopify site. I'm just not doing much of anything. I had some great ideas for some things to really put a twist on them and make them my own. I'm not doing that. I'm taking a design course to learn to design my own stuff because I had so many ideas. I'm not doing that. It's driving me crazy because I can't seem to break out of it. Normally just recognizing what is going on is enough to help me break through. But not this time. I am well aware of what is happening and I can combat it, but I can't seem to break the bonds of this depression. So, I need to do something else. I'm going to start with cleaning up this room and getting some more organization. Usually, my organization springs from a desire to do a specific thing and I need to organize to do that. This time I need to organize so that I can do whatever it is I need/want to do. I sold one of my heat presses yesterday and now have an empty shelf in the closet. That is going to help me get my wood more organized. I have a list of to-dos that I've been putting off, going to get those done ASAP.  Going to work on some of my classes and some of my ideas. I'm tired of feeling this way and I'm going to do everything that I can to shake it. 

Okay, I feel more empowered and motivated. I'm going to look around here and really figure out how I can organize things more effectively. 

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