Step Away From the Cake

 So I made it through the week. I do feel my energy levels increasing and that's a good thing. I did not make it to work out this week and that's a bad thing, but it's easily rectifiable so no beating myself up over it.  I have a craft show this weekend. I've been focused on getting things ready for that and as usual, I change things up at the last minute. I had initially thought that I would focus on everyday things - tumblers, water bottles, etc. Then the other day I decided to add some Halloween and Christmas stuff into the mix. So I've been scrambling to get those made. I've also been trying to come up with ways to make my new, little laser easy to use. My thought is to make jigs for the things I want to engrave and then I can just put them in the laser and engrave away. It's proving to be not as easy as it sounds. So I'm working on that. Then today I have a staff meeting from 9-noon. Really??? Today????? So it is 5am and I am up and running the lase...

 I should be meditating right now, but I have something weighing on my mind and I really need to get it off. So here goes..... Saturday morning we went to a pancake breakfast fundraiser that the football team was having. The details are unimportant but I ended up getting very snippy and nasty with Hubby in front of some school people. Not my greatest moment. I've been ruminating on it all weekend and trying to stop thinking about it, but it keeps popping back up. I have finally decided that there is something I'm missing there and I need to spend a little time digging into it.  This rumination has brought to the surface a couple of things I'm not proud of. First, my equanimity is not as good as I thought it was. I try very, very hard not to let things get to me - but they still do. So working on that is something that I need to move to the top of my list of things. I can't let what others do and say get to me, I just can't. Whatever they may do and say cannot affect...