I'm fooling myself

 I have this attitude that if I ignore something it will go away. Now I know that is not true and have had it proven to me time and time again. Yet I do it. So, what might I have been ignoring you ask? Actually a couple of things. 

First, I've been ignoring my finances. We spent a sh*t ton of money on the patio area - which I'm glad we did because it looks amazing. But instead of redoing the budget and setting everything straight, I've been ignoring it for over a week now hoping it will all be good. This creates stress in my body which increases cortisol levels which is bad, bad, bad for me and my health. 

Second, I've been ignoring my health. I don't work out much, I've been off all week and I've worked out once. My eating has gotten really sloppy - bread, bread, bread. And I've been doing a whole lot of sitting working on my craft stuff. All of this is extremely bad for my health. 

So it's time to do something about this. Seriously do something, not just talk about it. 

I use the excuse a lot about not having enough time. I get up early in the morning to go to work. I get home around 4 or 5 from work. I have to be in bed early in order to get up early. Blah, blah, blah. I have literally proved that not to be true by adding a round of Supernatural in the mornings. I do a workout of Supernatural and then have still been getting to school on time or early. So my not having enough time is absolute BS. As for the evenings, let's look at this a little bit. Most days I can get home by 4ish. On Wednesdays I can't and if I have a meeting I can't, but other days there is no reason why I can't get home by 4ish. I need to walk Mavy, which takes let's say 30 minutes. So by 4:30 or so I am done. Dinner is usually around 5:30 so I have an hour to do things. I don't do Johns Hopkins any more so I don't have that excuse. I could go to the gym. I could work out with weights at home, I have some. I could go to the gym in the morning - though I think that might be pushing it a little. I could go to the gym on my way home. If I could get to the gym by 4ish one day a week and get a workout in, then I could workout on Fridays and Sundays, that would be my 3 times a week. I've already discovered that I can workout in the mornings, why can't I work out in the afternoons? I get home around 5ish and have a half hour to walk Mavy before dinner. Then I still have the rest of the night to relax and spend with Hubby. 

Okay, that's great, but let's be super honest here. I need to develop a regular workout routine before I start making these big gym plans. So here's what I'm thinking, I want to focus for the next 4 weeks on working out regularly. I will do Supernatural in the mornings at least 4 days a week. I will go to the gym on Fridays and Sundays - even if I have to get up earlier. I will walk Mavy every day. And I will get 10,000 steps even if I have to walk around the pool to do it. I will start moving more. 

Okay, so now that I've handled the movement, let's talk about food. I've been letting my diet slip a whole lot lately and it's time to get a grip on it. I'm just going back to the basics; No sugar, no alcohol, low carb. That's it, it's not crazy complicated, just eat real not processed food. I'm also going to track my food for a while to really get a handle on what I'm eating and how much I'm eating. Just did that and added my coffee for the day. Need to make a habit of doing that. Going to add food tracking to my habit list. 

As for the last two days of break. I have spent hours upon hours in this room doing things for my craft show in one week. I can't do that. So I need to set limits. Which means I need to make a list of things to do for the show and then prioritize them and then knock them out. I can't work more than 3-4 hours a day on this. As much fun as it is, I need balance. I want to read. I want to workout. I want to fix my budget. I can't do all those things if I'm spending 10 hours working on crafts. So time to get real. 

Towards that end, I have not been using my planner all week and I need to do that. By writing things in my planner, setting goals for the day, etc. I am a lot more focused and productive. I'm not a fan of the term proud - I'm not sure why it has some slightly negative connotations to me - but I do want to feel accomplished at the end of the day. I want to feel that I did what I set out to do that day. That also means not being so vague. I need to be very specific with what I want to get done each day. Okay, I am feeling so much better now. I have a plan and I'm going to stick to it no matter what. 

Off to set up my planner and get a workout in before a doctors appointment.