Step Away From the Cake

 Every year C goes up to SF to go to 49er game with his son. It's a good weekend for him, he gets away, gets to a game, and gets to spend time with C2. It's also a good weekend for me as I can really do whatever I want. Yesterday I took Mavy on a hike in the Superstition mountains then spent the rest of the day crafting. It was really good. Today I'm heading out to lunch and a little shopping with a coworker and then more crafting this afternoon. Tomorrow I'll be working on school work and getting ready for the week. Monday C comes home so I'll need to pick him up from the airport after school. So yeah, overall a really good weekend for everyone involved.  I have not been working much on my self-care and I'm not sure exactly why. I mean, I have. Some things are just set in stone now. I meditate every morning. I try to catch my thoughts when they go south on me. Working out is still a struggle. And things like cold showers or unentertained time or mundane tasks, ...

 That question came up in a podcast and it really resonated with me. How many days have you gotten to the end of and thought, wow, that was a wasted day. Or that was a horrible day. Or I'm glad that day is over. Or anything negative like that? Too many for my liking when you only have 100 years to live. So this person asks themselves at the end of every day, "Are you proud of today?"  I like it. I have it up on my board so I can see it when I leave this room. I want to be proud of every single day. I want to live every single day, not just pass through them. I don't want to waste a day.  I'm working on making a habit tracker, ironic since I just threw a nice one away. But there are a couple of things I want to make sure I do every day and this is a decent way to keep tabs on them. Some things I want to do a couple of times a week, but I  can still track them on a habit tracker. So that is something I'm working on. I was designing it while I watched TV last nig...