Step Away From the Cake

It is 4:30 am and I am supposed to be working on my dissertation, which I did just finish loading articles, but I have some thoughts that I just need to get out of my head and find a way around. Last night I had planned on going to Crossfit for the mobility class and I was also thinking of going to school for an open house they were having. Now neither of those things happened and I'm kind of upset with myself about it. Why didn't they happen? Because I was tired! Tired!! What a stupid excuse. And I wasn't even that tired because I did not take a nap, or should I say fall asleep at my desk - which is what I usually do when I'm really tired. So yes, I was tired, but not that tired. Also, the mobility class is not like a workout, I totally could have done it. And the going to the open house would mean that I did not have to go to the next one. Ugh!!! I let a little thing like 'tired' control my life. I did go to bed early, but I would have been able to go to be...

Well, the week did not go as planned. I spent the first part of the week very, very tired. That was expected, but I still let it get the better of me. My planner for the week is almost completely blank. I just filled in some stuff right now. I can usually tell how the week went based on the planner. A full planner with lots of notes everywhere, productive week. A blank planner means I mentally checked out. Which I kind of did this week. So now I'm paying the consequences. The thing is, I can't cry over what is done. I really need to move on. So, that is what I'm doing, moving on. I have a goal. I have a number of goals. I just need to get a plan and follow through. So, let's start with goal #1: health and fitness. In my defense, my feet were killing me most of the week. I'm not exactly sure why, other than my weight, but it was painful to walk/stand most of the week. Because of that, I did not go to cross or do any walking on the treadmill as planned. My feet f...