Step Away From the Cake

It is amazing how your thoughts can affect your life. For the past month, I have really been working on my thoughts. No negative self-talk. Being positive. Thinking good things. I've also worked on my gratitude. I started writing down something good that happened every day. They are simple things; had ahi for lunch, got an Instant pot, got my office organized. Nothing earth shattering, just simple everyday things that are good news. It is so easy to focus on the negative. By doing this I am forced to find something good every day, even if I think nothing much happened. It is all in how you view things. And it's paying off. When I came home from work tonight, I just got really happy. I am so incredibly lucky. We have this fabulous house that is just amazing. It is far more than I ever thought I would own. It even has a pool. Hello!!!! A pool???? It is just so awesome. I have this great job, easily the best teaching job ever. School is only 4 days a week and every day I have at

So the last couple of days I've just been real with myself, but I've been avoiding all negative self-talk. I do say that I am fat, but I don't say it in a degrading, disgusted way like I used to. The fact of the matter is that I am fat. It's not good or bad; it's just what is. It's like saying someone is tall or short, it just is. I have actually been taking a page from my dogs. They don't care if they are fat or skinny, they are just happy. So I've been working on that this week. While I do need to lose some weight, I have realized that I can't come from a negative place. Negativity never gets good results. Every time I've lost significant weight in the past, I have been in a positive mindset. So working on the positivity. The other thing I am working on is developing habits. I want the workout habit. I want the habit of working on my dissertation. I want the habit of keeping the house in order. I know that to-do lists work for me, so I am tr