Step Away From the Cake

I learned a long time ago that if I wanted to understand or figure something out, I must give it great thought and then walk away from it. Leave it sit for a while and it usually sits in the back of my brain (for want of a better description) percolating. Then when I go back to it I have either learned something or figured something out or am able to see it differently. After writing the post last night, I did some thinking about this house. This house is huge. 3 times the size of our house in Hawaii. There are literally areas we don't even go into for days. Keeping it clean is a chore in itself. I have the habit, from Hawaii, of doing the whole house in one day. Hell, the whole Hawaii house took me an hour. Here it takes me an hour to do the floors. Yikes. So clearly my 'do-it-all-at-once' attitude towards house cleaning has got to change. Then I also thought about how much time I waste every single day. I come home and sit in front of the computer for hours. I scroll Face

I am trying so hard to be positive and upbeat, but I have zero motivation. I want to lose weight, but don't really do anything about it. I eat what I want, when I want and I don't workout. I want to be motivated. I want to lose weight. I want to be healthy. Why can't I get going again? I want to, I truly do, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to do it. I've been trying to focus on positivity and self-love hoping that it would just kick in the good habits. It hasn't. I've been relatively happy, but nothing. Clearly, I'm going to have to do something more. I don't like the way I feel or the way my body feels. I'm tired and sore and don't have much energy. So I think it is time to start faking it until I make it. The guy on one of the forums I'm on says to live the life you want to have. I guess that will have to be the way it is. I'm really tired of being tired. Yes, I do have a lot on my plate, but there are others that have