Step Away From the Cake

just going to leave this right here for those times when I question what I'm doing.

My last post was never quite finished. I was an ongoing post all day yesterday and I just decided to publish it this morning and start a new post. Yesterday, every time something came up, I would write a little in the post. The thoughts will be ongoing for a long time, so I just decided to publish the post unfinished. Life is like that sometimes. Yesterday afternoon, I sat down with Hubby and laid it all out for him. I tried not to influence his decision either way, just laid out the pros and cons of leaving and staying. Then asked him to think about it and let me know what he thinks. Well, last night at dinner he said he had thought about it most of the day and thought we should leave. Uhhhhhh........ I honestly was not expecting that from him. I really thought he would want to stay longer. He does want to stay until August or September. That makes it a little bit difficult as school usually starts in August, so if I was to get a teaching job I would need to be there. But then I th...

I usually find, that when I have a troubling problem, if I think it through thoroughly and then walk away from it, I generally come up with a solution. So after spilling my guts last night, I watched TV, colored, and went to bed. Hoping that something would come to me. It did not. What did happen is that some additional concerns arose and were added to the mix. Hubby's social security might be garnished due to an ancient child support battle. Hubby and the ex settled the child support issue, but the f*cked up state of Cal won't let it go. So if that happens and we are still here, nothing changes and life goes on as before. If that happens and we are in the midst of a move, it might be a problem. But, if we are in the midst of a move that means we've sold the house and might have the money to just pay that off and be done. But, if we stay and let them take the social security for a while, next year the balance will be quite a bit lower and less will come out of our pocket. ...