Step Away From the Cake

My overriding goals this week were just to walk every morning and work on my dissertation every night. I did that. Walking on the treadmill has become such a habit that I am making it a priority. Thursday night was back to school night and I didn't get home until late. I did not prep food for Friday or do any of the normal things. I got up Friday remembering that I had 3 labs to prep that day and kicking myself for not doing while I was at open house. I got up at 4:40, no food ready and a desire to get to school really early to get my labs ready. After getting the bird food ready and grabbing some coffee, I decided that I had enough time to get a short treadmill workout in. I have been doing 20 minutes this week, but thought I'd just do 15. After 15 I said, screw it let's do 20. So I did. I felt so proud of myself. Not only did I make time to get on the treadmill, but I ended up going longer than I planned. And I'm so proud that I made sure to get on every morning th...

After last night's post, I sat and created a to-do list in my planner. I have a fabulous Passion Planner that I did not use in the month of August. When I use it, I find I am very productive. When I don't use it??? Not so much. So I dusted it off and made a to-do list for today. Today is Labor Day, so it's a good day to catch up on things I did not do over the weekend. The thing is though, now I'm sitting here waiting for Hubby to get up because the things on my list create noise. I just reread that sentence and realized I was using that as an excuse to sit on the computer and play around. Reading does not make noise. Walking on my treadmill does not make noise. Logging on to Phoenix or Walden does not make noise. This is truly what I need to work on; catching myself in these little lies that I tell myself. Yes, I need down time, but there are also little chunks of time that I can use to do something quickly. Like now and reading. I can't sit and read for hours st...

I know that I've been talking about doing a lot of things and not really doing them. I know that I'm not happy the way I am, but am not really doing much to change that. I have a tendency to go whole hog, all or nothing, balls to the wall. This has not worked out well for me in the past as I usually go for a bit then crash and burn. Hard. So I was trying to ease into it this time. Trying to slowly build up to major changes, instead of doing it all at once. I've been walking for at least 15 minutes in the morning and that has been good. I haven't been walking the dogs every night because some nights it is so freaking hot and humid no one wants to move. I joined 24 hour fitness but haven't managed to get over there yet. Hmmm.. Food has not been bad, except for the cookie binge Friday and Saturday. Hubby is all on board with the whole paleo thing so that is going well. I do need to monitor my caloric intake as I tend to not eat enough which makes me sick and tired. ...

at least for Paleo. I tried to do it this week in a half assed kind of way. It didn't work so well. In fact, it led to a cookie binge that lasted 2 nights. Not good. The problem is multi-faceted. First, I did not have any dressing for my salads so I thought I could just use regular dressing. That was a mistake. Second, I don't think I was eating enough calories. I was hungry, very hungry. That led to Starbuck's for breakfast on Friday, which led to pot pie and cookies for dinner on Friday, which led to cookies last night. I think I need to be more strict with myself, especially in the beginning. On the up side, I feel pretty good and lost like 2 pounds in spite of myself. So that is pretty awesome. We are arranging for mediation with the neighbors. I'm being an as*hole and dragging out the process as long as possible. Just because I can :). I have reached the point where I no longer care about them or what they say or what they do or anything. So every little chance ...