Step Away From the Cake

I am a person of extremes. With me it is all or nothing. Fast or dead stop. Feast or famine. I've been that way for most of my life. I'm working very hard now, in my old age, to find balance. Rather than fast forward or not at all, I'm trying to find a speed that plays well for me. I'm trying to find this balance, this middle ground, in all areas of my life and I'm not sure that I am succeeding at any of it. I have a habit of procrastinating that then requires me to pull marathon sessions to get things done. That is not balance. I will work out for an entire week, then eat an entire box of cookies in one night. That is not balance. I need to find balance and I'm not sure why I can't. Is that I have too much on my plate? Or not enough? Am I trying to accomplish things that I don't want to? Am I not having any fun? All of these things will make balance impossible to find. So what can I do about it? Work to find that balance? Include something in every day

that's what this weekend was. Lazy. I did some things but nothing earth shattering. I cleaned house a little. Got some breakfast made for the week. Went to Crossfit twice. Took a nap every day. Went to lunch with Hubby. Did laundry. And all that took me three days. It has been nice to not have papers or assignments hanging over my head. To just take it easy and relax for a couple of days. But I think the relaxing is over. I have to get to school early tomorrow and jump right in to get a lab set up. So it will be early to bed tonight and then up and at em in the morning. I went the whole week last week without eating any sweets. I avoided cake, ice cream, etc, with no problem at all. Then Friday night the wheels came of the bus and they have not gotten back on yet. Sunday I bought lemon Oreos at the store and over the course of two days, I ate almost the entire package. Now I know this is not good. After I ate some yesterday, I crashed - hard - on the couch for over an hour. I kn