Step Away From the Cake

I have had some revelations today. I started watching my 600 lb life and it is an eye-opener. If there is anything that will convince you to lose weight, it is that show. But one of the shows really hit home with me. The woman was 500lbs and had convinced herself she couldn't walk. So she spent her life in bed. She got bypass surgery and then refused to follow the diet they gave her. 6 months after surgery she had gained 5 lbs. She was eating things and had convinced herself that she was doing everything right. She was in complete denial. That really hit home because I do that. I do that with food. I do that with my weight. I do that with money. I live in a fantasy world sometimes. And I've been living there lately. I stepped on the scale this morning because I start a diet bet tomorrow and I am 204.4. There is no justifying or explaining or whatever that number. I am over 200 lbs and that is something I swore I would never be again. So no more fantasy land, time to face reali

The last few days I have had a head cold and so things were not moving as quickly as I would like. But I think that actually may be a good thing. I usually start something all gun-ho and hit 100 right out of the starting gates. This usually leads to burn out pretty quickly. This time I've had some time to reflect on exactly what I'm doing and how I'm going to go about doing it. So this may be a good way to start off my Project Me. And truthfully, it's not how you start but how you finish. Yesterday was not good at all. I woke up and really felt like crap because of this head cold. I didn't go to Crossfit. I did go to school and get the test I needed to finish my grading. I was absolutely freezing all day long and spent the day in sweats. After lunch I took a bit of a nap and when I woke felt a little better. I was supposed to go to a friend's house but the weather started getting nasty and I did not really feel like socializing so I bailed. The rest of the da

Yesterday was good. I went to Crossfit at noon and did the Crossfit total - a New Year's tradition. Then came home and didn't do a lot the rest of the day. I did get some work done that I needed to do and realized that I needed to run to school - which I will do today. Otherwise, that was it. I have a bit of a headcold and am dragging a bit because of that. I realized that I left something off my Project Me yesterday. I need to add finances in there. My finances are a mess and I need to get a grip on them. So that is being dealt with by putting a moratorium on spending and being aware. Very, very aware. In order to be aware, I need to keep track of the accounts. I currently have two accounts that I keep money in and I pay bills and such from. I need to check these accounts every day and keep track of the balances. I have a few bills I need to catch up on, but before I can do that I need to get a handle on where we are. So that category has been updated on my project me page. O

It all begins this month. So my goals for January in each category are as follows: Fitness: Crossfit 4x a week for a total of 20 times. Yes, that is technically more than 4x a week but I can squeeze in an extra workout during the entire month. Also, walking the dogs 4x a week for a total of 20 times. Success will be measured if I meet those goals. Health : Prepping my food for the week every Sunday this month, that is 5x. Taking my breakfast and lunch every day this month except January 5th. That will be a total of 17 breakfasts and lunches due to a couple of holidays. Success will be measured by meeting these numbers. Work : Have a plan when I return on the 6th for each class. Enter zeros for work not turned in the same day the assignment is due. Enter grades for work turned in no later than the next day and all grades for the week entered in by Friday. Success will be measured by not having any ungraded papers when I leave school on Friday. School : This is the hardest one

Last year one of the blogs I read started on a project me. Each month the blogger would outline goals and steps to get there. Their overall goal was to lose weight, control their diabetes, and depression. It worked, it's also possible they started before last year, but whatever. I want to do this. I have a lot I want to accomplish this year and if I don't keep on top of it, things fall apart very quickly. In a previous post , I outlined four areas that are really important to me and that I want to focus on this year. They are: Fitness (workout out) Health (food) Work School In that post, I outlined what I needed to do for each, and schedules that would make this work. Now let's look at details.  Fitness: My goal is Crossfit 4x a week and walking the dogs 4x a week. Yes, I would like to say that I will each one 5 or 6x a week, but that creates a lot of stress and pressure on myself. So 4x it is. I go to Crossfit on Saturday and Sunday, so that just leaves t

and 2015 is ready to begin. I know that these are arbitrary days we humans have chosen, but I love new beginnings. I used to make a fairly big deal about the new year, but the past couple of years I've let things weigh me down. But not this year. This year I'm excited about the new year and eager for it to begin. It is going to be a good year. One thing that has brought on this positive attitude, is Crossfit. I have been doing Crossfit for 3 1/2 years now and this year was tough. Really tough. I felt like I was not making progress. It seemed I had injuries all the time. I finally admitted that I cannot run or jump anymore. I really felt like I was getting old and even Crossfit wasn't going to stop that. But the last couple of weeks I've had some major successes in Crossfit and it has highlighted the fact that I am getting much, much stronger. First was the sore lats. Last week we did some negative pull-ups. I can't do them well, but I was able to lower a little