Step Away From the Cake

The last two weeks have been pretty hectic for me. First I had the AP seminar for a week. There they fed us all the time. I tried hard to not eat junk, but with it in my face for hours at a time, eventually I caved. I was not pleased with that, but what was was. Then I had a 3 day weekend - always nice, and then it was meetings, meetings, meetings for school. They fed us breakfast and lunch for three days, and lunch yesterday. The food was good and I made every effort not to go crazy, but still it was more than I wanted and not the kind of food I wanted. Plus, one of the people who run the cafeteria at school (that's where all the food came from) is an amazing baker. So each meal included some kind of dessert. And yes, I indulged. But it is over and time to move on. The moving on began last night with dinner. I had chicken and salad. It was awesome and I felt good after eating it. I was really tired though and was in bed by 9pm. Slept really good and up at 6am to start the day.

I made some connections today. For the past few weeks, I have struggled with my Ph.D. work. It was no longer fun and interesting and had become this huge burden. I dreaded having to do things and I would generally wait until the last moment to even look at the instructions. It was horrible. Then, yesterday, I sat down and looked over the assignments that were due today. I read some stuff and did just a little bit to prep. Actually, my intention was to write the papers yesterday but something came up. When I sat down to write them this morning, they just flowed. I felt like doing my best, which I haven't felt like doing lately, and I really put some effort into them. One class has an ongoing assignment that we have been doing a little bit of every week. I opened that up and looked it over and was appalled at the work I had done. It was not up to my normal standards and I can't believe I got a B on these. They were junk. One paper I redid 8 weeks worth of work. Anyway, apparentl