Step Away From the Cake

I get lazy. I get really, really lazy. And I've been lazy for a while now. Part of it started when I got a little depressed after the 'incident'. But I've gotten over that and just moved into lazy. I need to not be lazy. I need to not give in to the siren song of the couch in the middle of the afternoon when it is too hot to move. I need to not let the chair in my computer room lure me into comfort and end up snoozing. I need to not put off things because I don't feel like it/it's too hot/I'm too tired/blah, blah, blah. So for one day I will struggle and sacrifice to do what I now I should. Tracking calories, moving, working on schoolwork, these are the things I should be doing. Once I get everything done, then I can rest - but that will take a couple of days at least. So the plan for today: Crossfit Breakfast Track Shower Housecleaning Lunch Track Schoolwork Snack Track Walk dogs Dinner Track Plan tomorrow Not so hard. Simple to do list t...

They used to say burn more calories than you eat and you will lose weight. I know now that it is not that simple. If you cut calories too much you will lose muscle. I also know that you can not exercise your way to weight loss. It is not possible to exercise enough to outrun a bad diet. Can't be done. I was going to say that I used to eat too much and that is how I got overweight. That is not completely true. I used to eat too much of the wrong things. I still eat the wrong things but not near as much as I used to. Now I eat pretty well, but I'm beginning to suspect that I don't eat enough. I'm not good at tracking my calories, but I think I'm going to make it a priority for the next few days. The few times I have tracked I always end up around 1000 or 1200 calories. That is not enough. I don't want to be so crazy about what I eat, I just want to eat whole, natural food. But I need to eat enough of it. Part of the problem is being home. I'm not doing a whol...

Today is the 4th of July. We have no plans since the pups don't take well to fireworks. We generally stay home and keep them calm. So that's what we will do again today. Also, it being summer, having a holiday isn't that big a deal. Meanwhile, yesterday....it was weird. I felt like a donut so I went to the store to get one. I ended up getting a donut, a lemon cupcake, and some Munchies: I did get the smallest bag they have but that is still pretty big. So I came home and ate the donut and the cupcake. I then laid down on the couch and dozed for a few hours. Then I grabbed the Munchies, ate some, and dozed for a while longer. The TV was on but I was in and out of sleep. Finally around noon, I got up and felt good. I had a salad for lunch, started doing some work on my lesson plans and had a great afternoon. Walked the dogs when it got cooler and ate a good dinner. Weird. I was so tired in the morning and just craved junk. I had considered fighting it, but looking back ...

I've actually been wanting to take a rest day all week. I've been kind of dragging all week and felt like a rest day would really help. But, for one reason or another, I haven't. But today it is. The knee is a little tweaky, it bothered me all night, and I'm just not feeling it. So here I sit. I do have some school work I need to deal with, so I'll work on that today. I'm really feeling tired. I may just take a complete and total day off. Maybe I'll read, or watch mindless TV, or sleep. Hmmm...I am going to treat myself to a meal out, I just can't decide which one. Never mind, I just decided on breakfast. I have a craving for something. Tomorrow night for dinner I'll have kim chee steak. Okay, I have nothing to say and no desire to say it. I'm off.

I have followed all kinds of "diets" over the years, most recently paleo. And quite frankly I'm tired of them. I'm tired of thinking that hard about my food. I'm tired of planning and cooking and planning some more. I just want balance. I just want to eat healthy and not be so burdened by food. This morning I wanted something different for breakfast and ended up making myself a breakfast burrito. I stressed and fretted over the freaking tortilla. I finally decided to just let it be. I ate it, it was good, and that's enough. I'm tired of putting so much thought and effort into food.

Yesterday went pretty well. I went to Crossfit, came home and washed my car. Then I set up the dog barrier in the car and the seat belt. The dogs are now completely restrained when riding in the car. It is so much nicer. I don't have a dog leaning over my shoulder blocking my view and drooling on me. They don't jump in the front seat and try to squeeze out before me. It is much nicer and calmer ride. Yeah. Then I showered and headed over to Damien to drop some stuff off. Came home had lunch and by then it was hot. Really, really hot. I stretched out on the couch and napped for about 20 minutes then started working on school work. I did not walk on the treadmill because it was hot. Really, really hot. But today I am going to. I have nothing really planned today except schoolwork, so the treadmill it is. I also walked the dogs last night. Because it was so hot, I waited until 4:30 to start and it was nice. Up at the college it was cool, there was a nice breeze blowing and the su...

So here we go again. Everytime I get a start something happens to derail me. Last week a whole bunch of stuff came up and I completely lost it. So it is Monday, a new day, a new week, let's give it another go. Food: That has not been that out of control, but I have not been eating enough. So we are back to 3 meals, 2 snacks, and food every 3-4 hours. The 2 days I did that it was awesome, I felt amazing. So back at it. Water - my water is really hit or miss. Some days I drink gallons, other days not so much. So my goal is to drink 2 bottles of water - my hydroflask bottle. I fill that up before I go to Crossfit and at least one more time during the day. Must focus on water. Exercise: Crossfit 5 days, that's the easy part. But I need to add more movement, specifically walking. I'm going to become a walking fool. I read a weight loss tip from a Paleo coach and he said walk. Maximum you should walk as much as you can, minimum you should walk as much as you can. So walking ...

This has never been my strong suit. I try, lord knows I try, but I am just not a highly organized person. A while back, spring break I think, I worked hard to get things organized. I put things away, developed lists, worked on habits, and things were going great. As soon as school started back up it all went to hell. This summer I have not been able to get it back. Seriously, I try so hard and it just doesn't happen. Because of this lack of organization, I have fallen behind and am struggling to catch up. I had costumes to make last week and ended up spending all day Friday making them. All day. 11 hours!!! I had all week, but I didn't plan well enough and I had other commitments and boom. 11 hours Friday making costumes. Then, because I didn't plan well enough last week and spent 11 hours making costumes on Friday, I am now chained to the computer to try and get 2 papers done that are due today. UGH!!! I hate this. HATE IT!!! What this has done is renewed my desire to ...