Step Away From the Cake

This week has been so stressful, it is insane. I generally try hard to keep stress in my life to a minimum, and generally do pretty well with that. But this week has been the lead up to the prom. Being a control freak and having to rely on high school girls creates a very stressful situation for me. All this week I have had a headache that just will not go away. My eating has been crap. Either I haven't been eating at all or I've been eating junk. I find it interesting how I deal with stress. As I said, I generally keep stress to a minimum by either doing Crossfit and eating right, or just trying to tackle things head on. Oh, and knowing when I can't control things and letting them just happen. So seeing how the stress this week has manifested in my body is incredibly interesting. I can't imagine how people live with this all the time. And people do. Yuck.... Part of the stress was trying to figure out how to fit in 14.4. I was thinking I could do it this morning, or

Self sabotage is something I am an absolute master at. Looking back over my life I can see the pattern over and over again. I will be doing something, aspiring towards something, making great progress, feeling good, then wham. I do something that screws everything up. There are only a few things I have not done that with and a few areas where I have done it and it worked out okay anyway. It started to happen with Crossfit. I started in September of 2012. For a year I did amazing, felt like a rockstar, got heavier and heavier, lost weight, all that stuff. Then I got an injury and rather than take care of the injury I kept going. I got another injury and rather than take care of the injury, I kept going. I got frustrated because I was injured. I ate like there was no tomorrow. I gained weight, I felt like crap, and all my workouts felt like crap. It took a long time, but I managed to work my way through it and I'm now in a really, really good place with Crossfit. I can see it happen