Step Away From the Cake

All day has been spent working on papers. Tomorrow will be too. The final projects in both classes are due and I am working like crazy to get them done. My brain has literally gone numb. I've got one almost completely done but I have completely run out of things to say. The other I haven't really looked at, but I have been working on it for 10 weeks, so it should go fairly smoothly. I just need a break. I'm waiting to play a game. I like playing hidden object games and they distract me and give my mind a chance to run free. As a result of all this paper writing, I have been sitting on my butt all day. I don't like to do that, but what are my options? My butt is numb along with my brain. The good news is, I have been drinking a lot of water. A small victory, but a victory none the less. I decided a while back that I wanted to move back to the mainland. It has taken some time, but I have finally convinced Hubby of it. So it won't be happening for a few years, but a

have not been great. I had a melt down at Crossfit on Tuesday night. I have been struggling the last week or so and I'm not exactly sure why. But Tuesday night I went in feeling bleh, and things when downhill from there. My body hurt. I struggled with every single move. But I was determined to finish. And I did. Woke up Wednesday morning in pain. Back pain. Shoulder pain. Knee pain. Ugh...Felt like crap but since I was taking Thursday off, I went to work and struggled through. Well, that and I had an appointment after work. Spent most of the day in agony but I survived. Thursday, yesterday, I had off because I had an MRI scheduled. They told me it would take 1-3 hours so I took the day off. It took 15 minutes. Oh well, free day. Then at 11 I had a physical therapy appointment. That went well. I have made improvements and she gave me some new exercises. Then last night my left shoulder lower trapezius started hurting like you would not believe. That one right there. Now this is n

I used to be shy. Very. Very. Shy. I'm not any longer, but I have always been and always will be an introvert. I have always taken that to mean I just enjoyed being alone.. This graphic not only explains the difference, but helps me to understand myself more. It explains the difference between an introvert and an extrovert is where they draw their energy from. Extroverts draw from other people, introverts draw from themselves. This creates a situation where being with people is exhausting for introverts. And that's exactly how it is for me. It's not that I don't like people, it is just that they take so much energy. I never really understood what that meant, but now I do. I think this help explain a lot of things about me, things I thought were quirks but may just be my introverted nature. I don't need validation from other people. I never really did. I would hear people say they how they wanted someones approval and I would wonder why? But I see it now. They

I don't normally do Crossfit on Sundays, it is one of my two rest days. But since I missed the last three days, Sunday it was. The coach on Sunday calls it Sunday Funday and he makes up with WOD himself. It is usually brutal and today was no exception. The WOD: For Time: 30 kb swings - 35# 60 goblet squats 30 box jumps - 16" 30 deadlifts. - 90# * 4 burpees EMOM * 15 minute cap Yes, it was as ugly as it looks. Apparently this is a workout the coaches did yesterday during rowing certification. Oh joy. The picture above is of a goblet squat because I had no idea what they were until I had to do 60 of them. This would be a tough workout by itself, but add in the burpees and you take it to a whole new level. Then add in the fact that yesterday I ate garbage and my digestive tract is not happy with me, and that takes it to a whole new realm of ugly. But I got through it in 13:57 - I was driven not to do that last set of burpees. But there were some thoughts along the

For the last few days I have been craving these. That in and of itself would not be so strange. I crave stuff. But the thing is, it has been a mental craving and not a physical craving - if that even makes sense. I've wanted it in my head even though my stomach was full. And of course, when I had them they were horrible. To be honest, I think it's hormonal. I am in menopause, but I think the hormones still bounce around during the month. When I had my period, this is what I always wanted 2-3 days before it started. So I have a feeling that is what is going on. Time to break that habit. Thursday night is my regular rest day, so no Crossfit. Then Friday I woke with my knee hurting. I think it was because of the jumping in Monday's WOD. We had double unders, jumping squats, running, lots of pounding on the knees. By Friday they were a mess. So I ended up taking Friday night off also. Then yesterday I had to go to school in the morning and missed the WOD. It's been 3 day