Summer is winding down

My last weekend of freedom. Monday I start AP classes. Next Tuesday it's back to school. Wow, that sure went fast. I remember it being May and me thinking there was no way I could survive the summer with nothing to do. I was wrong. I made it. In fact I got used to it. I don't think I could do this forever, but it was a nice break. Every year I teach summer school, so I've never really had a full summer off. In many ways I am ready to get back to work and in others I wish summer would continue a few more weeks. Oh well, it is what it is.

In food issues, I'm so torn about the whole food thing. I love the way I feel when I eat mainly paleo, I just hate thinking about it all the freaking time. For two days, I haven't been paleo much and I'm feeling kind of yucky. So I think I need to come to grips with the food issue. What really bothers me is that I can't quite figure this out completely. I'm an intelligent person and I don't understand why I struggle with this so much. So I'm just not anymore. I like how I feel when I eat paleo, so that's how I'll eat 90% of the time. That is all there is to it. No freaking out. No stressing over food, just eat paleo. I am not going to be so insane about it and if I have wheat or sugar once in a while it will not be the end of the world. But I'm done stressing about it. In fact, now that I think about it, the stress is caused by the indecision. When I'm on a paleo challenge I don't stress like this. It is very clear what I can and can't eat and there is no stress involved. It is only when I try to be easy on myself that the stress sets in. Hmmm...never really considered that before. Something to consider. Just popped over to the Whole30 to see about starting one of those. I'm considering it. I do better when there is accountability. That is why the paleo challenges work so well for me. I need to commit to something though or I'm going to keep this nonsense up. So why can't I make a promise to myself and keep it? Why can't I promise my body that I will eat right and then follow through? I can. I can make a challenge with myself. I will pay myself five dollars every day that I stick to the plan. At the end of August, I will take the money and buy myself something good. Hmmm......not a bad idea. Five dollars may be a little much though, but one dollar is too little. Or is it? If I continue, and don't have an end date in sight, one dollar a day will add up. And I always have a dollar in my wallet. Crap, I have dollars all over the place. I have a bank that has like $80 in change in it. I will add my dollar every day to it and use that money at the end. Hmmm....I seem to be on to something here. Let me work it out further and come up with a concrete plan. Right now I'm hungry, so I'm off to the shower and then breakfast.