One more time

I used to get really angry at myself for having to start over. I would get really upset and could not understand why I couldn't just stick to something. Well, I've learned over the years, that is pretty much what life is all about. Making mistakes, moving on, starting over. I no longer get angry at myself but try to learn from my non-successes. I've been trying to get things started again these past few weeks, but I kept running into walls. Depression. Lethargy. Illness. I think I've gotten over all the walls and I'm ready to give it another go. So I need some goals that are not so lofty I fail, but things to start moving me towards feeling better. There are two components to this thing; food and activity. Both of which I've been doing poorly at. So let's look at them individually.

Food: My eating in the recent past has been horrendous. I don't eat breakfast until 10am. Sometimes I don't eat lunch at all other times it's something I grab and stuff in my face. Then I have dinner and pig out. Enough of that. I don't like eating that way and never have, so time to change it up. Breakfast is intricately tied to my workouts. I go to Crossfit from 8-9am. After Crossfit I usually can't eat for 30-45 minutes. Also, I'm usually a little hungry when I get to Crossfit. I'm up before 6am so there is no reason I can't have a little something around 6-6:30. It has to be small though so I can digest it before I workout. Something like a hard boiled egg or a banana with a little almond butter. It's hard for me to eat that early in the morning, but I can learn. Then when I come home I can have a little lighter breakfast at 9:30-10:00ish. Maybe an egg and a slice or two of bacon. Then I should be ready to have lunch by 12 or 12:30. Waiting to eat until 2pm is just stupid and skipping is absolutely ridiculous. Wait. Maybe initially I will eat every 3 hours. Oh, that would totally work to get me back into a regular eating schedule. I could eat something at 6:30 - within a half hour of getting up; something at 9:30 - after the WOD; something at 12:30 - lunch; something at 3:30 - right before I walk the dogs; then generally we have dinner around 6:30. This would work. I'm not a huge fan of the every three hour thing, but sometimes it is a good tool to get back on track. I am going to focus on low carb too, I just feel better when I eat low carb. But I'm not going extreme. I'm going to try carb cycling, low carb for 3 days, high carb 1 day. But not this week. This week I want to go low carb all week just to kind of reset things. My first high carb day will be on Saturday when we have a Crossfit thing. So the eating goals this week are low carb and eat something every three hours. Got it.

Activity: I have going to Crossfit down. I do that every morning and love it so that is not the issue. The issue is the rest of the day. I spend far, far too much time on my ass at this computer or laying on the couch watching TV or napping. That has got to end. I need to structure my day so I'm not spending so much time inactive. I have some pretty big projects for this week, so that should. I have to make our costumes for the Crossfit thing next Saturday and I want to paint and redo the bathroom. Those thing will keep me pretty busy. I also need to work on school work. So I want to develop a bit of schedule for myself. When I get up in the mornings at 6, I will look over the day and see what needs to be done. At 8 I go to Crossfit. After breakfast I will work on either my project or some school work. After lunch I will then switch and work on the other thing. Then at 4ish I walk the dogs. This one is a little harder to plan out exactly because things change. Something will come up and I need to run out. Redoing the bathroom I want to in one day, so that will take up the whole day. So I need to be a little flexible but I need to not let that lead to doing nothing. Why do I need to do the bathroom in one day? Why can't I prep and paint it one day and then put it back together the next? See, these are the things I need to watch for. Okay, I will clearly have to work on this on a day by day basis. I'm up for the challenge. I also want to go to the beach one day. I want to do that at least once a week.

Alright, I have a plan for the week and I have new determination and drive. I will take it one day at a time and work my hardest to be successful.