Step Away From the Cake

and it really is that hard. Turning the switch from off to on, for any reason, is a simple thing yet so hard to do. What I have discovered is that if I can turn it on in one area of my life, I can generally coax it on in other areas. For example, I wrote about someone's comment at Crossfit about my making excuses. Since that night I have not been allowing myself to make any excuses. I either do something or I don't - thank you Yoda. That's all. I give my best and if it happens, it happens. If not, well, next time I have to give more. That's it. It's been working out really well. Because I've had that attitude with Crossfit and things are starting to click again, it's spreading. I have a 16 page paper to write. I've had 2 weeks to write it but I've really been blocked the few times I tried to write. This morning I sat down with the conviction that I could totally do this, and it started to come. I still have a long way to go, but I'm off to a ...

The other night at Crossfit, I finished my workout with a spasm in my lower back. I was bitching and complaining, I actually almost quit the workout. Finally one of the men said to me, it all sounds like excuses. That has been rolling around in my head since then I can finally say out loud, he was right. Every workout I was coming up with all kinds of excuses. Now, I did injure my shoulder and it's still sore, but all that means is I have to take it easy with it. Everything else is just an excuse. So last night I have it my all and did pretty good. Tonight I gave it my all and while I didn't get to finish the workout because I ran out of time, I know I gave it everything I had. And I'm happy. So no more excuses. I'm going to go, work hard, and do my best. I know from experience my best will get better and better as time goes on.