Step Away From the Cake

Even though I signed up for Weight Watchers on Wednesday, and I've been tracking my points since then - today is really Day 1. On Wednesday I did not know how much I weighed because my scale is insane, so I just entered 200lbs. Thankfully I'm not quite that yet. I'm starting at 196.6. Still extremely high but I least I haven't crossed that 200 mark. Yeah!!!! My goal for this week is to track every single bite I eat and to follow my workout schedule and workout 6 days this week. I'm trying very hard to stay away from number goals since that generally leads to feelings of failure. What usually happens, with me and others, is that I will lose weight the first week. The second week I may stay the same or possibly even gain a little. The third and fourth week can go either way - up or down. It's usually at this point that I give up, but if I stick with it the weight will slowly start to come off. A little at first and then week by week it will go steadily...

Today is the official weigh in day. Yikes!!!! I've gotten weighed at the doctors office so I have an idea of what I weigh, but my appointments have always been in the afternoon. I always weigh more in the afternoon. When I was a freak and weighed myself 3 and 4 times a day I learned that. Good to know for when I see big number on the docs scale, but also a good way to create the illusion in my mind that I'm not that heavy. So it's a double-edged sword. Anyway, I've done pretty well since Wednesday. I've tracked my food religiously even when it was over my points. I haven't worked out since Wednesday because these were my scheduled days off. But I'm supposed to workout today and I'm going to. I'm going the meeting. Then I'm working out. Then I have some things to do before an appointment at 3:15. Busy, busy, busy. So, I'm off. Will check back in later with all the news.....

Last time I swore there was nothing they had to offer me. I said I could not follow their program because it focused too heavily on processed foods. Well, guess what? Not following their program, or any program, has resulted in a steady climb up. I have got to stop the scale creeping up. I have to!!!! So I joined again. I'm going to track my food, go to meetings on Saturday mornings, eat right, and work out. I need to do this. I can not stand the way my body feels. I have a huge stomach and I everything is getting tight. I need to do this. More importantly, I want to do this. So, like I did with the working out, I'm going to commit to one month. One month of tracking. One month of attending meetings. One month of working it. At the end of the month I will reevaluate and see where I am. One month. I saw a cool bracelet for WW that uses Swarovski Crystal beads to help track your daily points. It's pretty too, maybe I'll get that just to remind me wh...

From my earlier post: On the agenda today: Clean the bird room, do laundry, iron clothes, grade pre-alg papers, pack things up for morning. I can totally do this. Let's see how I did. Clean the bird room - check, and I worked up a sweat doing it. Do Laundry - check Iron clothes - check Grade pre-algebra papers - nope Pack things up for morning - doing that as soon as I'm done here. Overall a successful day. I also worked out for 45 minutes, tried to help a lost dog, wrote my financial appeal letter to HPU, looked into finishing my masters other places because I don't have a good feeling about HPU, ate dinner, and am now almost ready for bed. Oh yeah, I watched some of Kim Kardashins wedding and fell asleep. I wonder if they are really that boring and annoying or if the editing makes them that way. Anyway, I've had a good day and I feel l...

is made in small steps. I have been making those small steps for the past week and I'm feeling good. I'm feeling in control. I'm feeling creative again. I've been working out following the schedule and feeling very empowered and strengthened by it. Strengthened not so much in that I'm getting stronger, but in that I'm sticking to the program. When I get one area of my life under control the rest just seems to fall into place. I need that to happen. And I'm making progress. On Friday I came up with a brilliant idea for handling my paperwork from school. You have no idea how much paperwork a school teacher has to deal with. I thought there was a lot of paperwork in Laboratory Animal Caretaker Jobs , which I have done and is regulated by everyone under the sun, but I was wrong. In 3 years I had not been able to come up with a system that worked for me. Well, I think I finally have and I'm feeling very satisfied and accomplished. That has led me t...