Step Away From the Cake

Things are tough right now financially.  We are in pretty dire straights and I'm not sure how we are going to get out of them.  I am looking for a part-time job to ease the situation temporarily but that is not a permanent solution.  Needless to say this is on my mind pretty much constantly and I don't know exactly how it's going to be resolved.  Which is kind of unusual.  Things like this will come up but I usually come up with a way around them.  This time I'm stumped.  As I was driving to work today I was thinking about this, as usual, and realized at least part of the problem.  I don't have any silent reflection time.  When I worked at the lab I had hours where I could mull things over in my head.  Hours where no one spoke to me and I spoke to no one.  Hours to do nothing but look at my situation from all sides. Hours to be open to whatever the universe had to say to me.  I don't have that anymore.  In fact, I rarely have 10 minutes of quiet time a day.  I g

I love routine.  I really do. I like having things set and knowing what I'm doing all day long.  If I don't have a routine, like on the weekends, I will get up in the morning and make a list of things to do, which usually includes the order I'm doing them in.  I function well with that structure.  I find if I "play it by ear" I tend to not get anything done.  For example, all weekend I had a pile of work to grade.  On Saturday, after WW, I basically did nothing all day.  I kept thinking that I would grade on Sunday.  Well, when Sunday dawned I realized I needed to get my butt in gear.  I made a mental list: Walk the dogs Laundry Grade papers Look at bridesmaid dresses   (wait, I didn't have to do that this weekend did I??? See why I need routine...) Interestingly enough, I got all my papers graded by 2 pm and had the rest of the afternoon free.  Nice.  So structure and routine work well for me. Setting up a routine however can be a whole different st

Inertia:  the resistance of any physical object to change it's state of motion.  More simply put, an object in motion remains in motion while an object at rest remains at rest.  This is of course until something comes along and has some direct effect on said motion.  I have times when I am tired and need to rest.  I will spend most of the day reading or watching TV but I generally feel kind of antsy just laying there.  Then there are days like yesterday.  I was a complete slug.  I spent the majority of the day on the couch snoozing in and out.  I woke up this morning feeling like I had taken some drugs.  This is my indication that I am oversleeping.  I feel all groggy and foggy and just not myself.  This tells me I need to move more, which presents a tiny bit of a problem.  Breaking that inertia is hard.  I will have to focus my mind all day on doing things and not give in to the temptation to stretch out on the couch.  I am starting the day with a long dog walk so hopefully that