Step Away From the Cake

I came to a realization today.  It's something that I kind of came to a couple of weeks ago but just had not taken the time to voice it.  I am done.  For most of my adult life I have had a bad body image and been at war with my body.  I have always considered myself fat or out of shape or not tall enough or whatever.... I've spent really good years starving myself or beating myself up.  I'm done.  For the last couple of weeks I have been working out regularly and eating well.  I feel awesome.  My body feels strong and capable. I have the energy and strength to do just about anything I want.  When I work towards a certain goal my body responds.  The most important thing is that I am happy with that. I'm just really tired of fighting a fight I'm never going to win.  Actually, I could win it but I do not want to work as hard as winning would require. So I am done. I will spend some time looking for the best face cream and I will move ...

My foot hurts. Specifically my left foot hurts on the inside of the heel, it's almost the Achilles tendon but not quite. Right there where that black circle is. Now I know exactly what tendon it is. It is very painful. It only hurts when I do a certain workout - which I did last night. I haven't been doing that workout because it made my foot hurt. The pain went away and I thought I'd give it a try. Now this morning I'm in pain. I don't know what to do about this. Is it my shoes? The floor at the gym? Some biomechanical thing? I just don't know and it's really starting to annoy me. Maybe I should take something? Would hgh releasers work? I've heard they help a lot of ailments.... I just don't know what to do. The worse part is I can not run like this and the shoes don't seem to help much. Actually, I just had a thought as I was typing this... Maybe if I ran on soft surfaces like grass. I may give that a try. This morning is st...

In spite of the fact that I swore I wasn't going to eat too much, I did. Yikes. Still feeling a little full today. I hate that. But I'm going to run and do a circuit workout this morning so that should help it. Yesterday was nice. We began with a walk with the dogs - that is always nice. Some of the best parts of my days are walking the dogs. Then we had mimosas and eggs Benedict for breakfast. Awesome. Then it was nap time. I don't do champagne well and it kicked my butt yesterday. After I got up it was off to see some friends. Then home for the meal and oh boy was it good. A little pie later on and to bed kind of early. So today the tummy is a little full still. Have to get moving to kick the metabolism into gear and start burning some calories. I have some errands to run today and I finally get to have my hair cut. The girl I love only works part time so hooking up with my schedule and hers sometimes takes a few days. But she works at 3 today and I ...

I love it. Only worked 2 days this week and now I am off until Monday. Love it!!!! Last week I managed to work out every night except Thursday. In an interesting turn of events, I started this place because of the aerobic classes. I am an aerobic person and I love doing aerobics. But lately I'm not so much into the aerobics and much more into the strength training. I am also completely hooked on circuit training. I love their circuits!!!! As a result of the strength training and the circuits, I am starting to feel muscles all over my body. My shoulders, my back, my legs. Awesome.... This is what I love. Now I need to kick in the aerobics and lose the fat so the muscles pop out. Happy, happy, happy...... I also need to get the running started. I have successful put it off for 2 weeks now. I am only 23 weeks out from the May 1st marathon. I need to get running. So starting today I run. Every morning I will run or walk. I need to move my feet and my ass........ ...

I am pleased with myself. I did the circuit training on Friday night and then did the strength class on Saturday morning. Awesome. On Saturday I did give in to the way I was feeling and just vegged all day. I drank lots of water and took a nap and generally just took it easy. I feel much better today. Still taking it easy but definitely on the mend. Since Hubby lost his job Christmas is going to be pretty slim this year. However, I have decided to take advantage of all the Cyber Monday deals that will be out there. I don't plan on buying a lot but what I do is going to be on sale and at a discount. Things may be bad but they can always be worse....