Step Away From the Cake

So my workouts have been sporadic, my eating has been spotty, my motivation fluctuating.  Time to get a little focus.  One of the things that helps me focus is reading weight loss blogs.  I've pared down a lot of my blog reading and since weight loss bloggers seem to fade out when things get tough, I haven't been reading many weight loss blogs recently.  I'm changing that.  I'm not sure if this is crazy but I really enjoy reading that other people are struggling just like I am.  That makes me feel not so alone and not such a failure.  So I've added more blogs to my feed reader. I also feel like I'm not accountable to anyone.  I need to change that.  I need to be accountable to myself. I'm not sure how I'm going to do that yet, I'm thinking I may start a daily posting here, that's worked in the past.....  Anyway, I did work out and I need to go shower now.

because apparently I'm too busy living.  And I think that's a good thing.  I don't really have all that much to say.  I had a good week. It was busy with school and school and life.   Didn't work out as much as I had hoped, but I have to start somewhere.  Eating was good, not great, but good.  So yeah, that's about it.  Hopefully I'll have more to say another time but right now, I'm just too busy living to write about it. 

Yesterday was bad.  I have never had back pain like that in my life.  Of course, since I am prone to back issues, I've never let myself get this out of shape.  When I weighed 225 I suffered from back pain frequently.  Once I started losing weight and working out the pain didn't go away completely, but it definitely subsided.  I found, contrary to popular doctor opinion, that regular exercise was much better for my back then resting it.  And generally, when I got lazy the first thing I would notice would be my back pain, just little twinges but enough to get me moving again.  Recently however, I've let things slide way too much.  I've been eating with abandon, not working out consistently, spending much too much time sitting here and yesterday was the trifecta of pain and I paid for it all day.  Well I am not going to let that happen again.  Absolutely not.  Today I start a fairly aggressive workout program but I'm going to approach it intelligently.  I'm going t

So yesterday I woke eager to start my workout and eating program and get on with feeling fabulous. A couple things were happening and about to happen. First, I started my period which always causes low back pain. It only lasts for a day or two but it can be pretty bad at times. Second, I was at my highest weight in years. Finally, I decided on a workout that is absolutely brutal but I love and I know works for me. It's a Karen Voight tape, I think it's called Your Personal Best. Unfortunately some model is in it too: Elle Macpherson, that's right. She annoys me but I really love this workout so I put up with her. Anyway, I've had this workout for about 10 years and I love it. When I first started losing weight I got it and it's been one of my go-to workouts for years. It's one of the very first tapes that recommended interval training. In this tape you do an aerobic section, then a strength, then an aerobic, then a strength. It does all those things tr