Step Away From the Cake

I'm not sure this is going to make sense to anyone but me but I want to document it. I'm pretty much done. I've reached a point where I'm tired of constantly thinking about my weight and working out. Where I'm tired of beating myself up because I didn't get a specific workout in that day. I'm incredibly busy right now and beating myself up about food and working out is really not helping at all. So I'm done. I'm going to watch what I eat but I'm not going to obsess about it endlessly, which it seems I do constantly. I'm going to eat good, healthy food because I like it, it tastes good, and it makes me feel good. Not because it will help me lose weight or build muscle or burn fat or anything else. I'm not going to stress over when I eat, I'll eat when I'm hungry. I'm not going to stress over portion sizes, an extra large apple will not kill me!! I am going to focus on how I feel. I'm busy teaching and learning and

Wow, it has been a wild couple of weeks. I have had so much work with my school, the summer school I'm teaching, the dogs, the birds, you name it. I have been running myself ragged trying to fit everything in that needed to be done in a day. Finally, a holiday. I now have time to decompress, regroup, and get organized for the coming week. I have one more week of summer school to teach, then I get a break for 2 weeks. Then it's full time school, 5 classes a day, 20 kids a class. I'll be busy over break getting ready for that. I'm looking forward to August 19 when my classes are over. Then I have a 3 week break before my next class starts, so for 3 weeks I'll only have teaching. The worst part about all this is the mental exhaustion. I'm sitting here right now and I'm having trouble forming coherent sentences. I just got up and I feel like I've been up for hours. I need to do some mindless stuff first. I'm going to take the dogs to the do

I knew this was going to happen but I was hoping I could delay it. It doesn't seem so. I have reached a point where I am just swamped. I'm still teaching summer school and those two hours a day take me about 4 hours to prepare for. I have class on Monday and Wednesday night that is 3 hours long each night and has a ton of work with it. I have 'field trips' every Tuesday that take a lot of time. And I have a 4 hour class every Thursday night that requires a ton of work. I've reached the point where I am just exhausted. I'm not getting my workouts in, the dogs aren't getting much exercise, I'm not spending much time with the bird or the hubby. Ugh!!!! The good thing is summer school ends next week. The bad thing is regular school starts before my classes end. So for the two weeks I'm off I want to get lesson plans done for the entire rest of my classes. I figure if I'm spending 4 hours getting 2 hours worth of lessons ready, how long is