Step Away From the Cake

John is Fit is this fabulous blog I found recently, which is good because I recently culled my reading list. I actually found him on a day he did a post about bloggers who disappear. It was rather fortuitous timing as I had just thinned the herd on my Bloglines and needed some new blogs to read. His has turned out to be one of the better ones I've found. Side note: I'm kind of funny with blogs. I will find a blog usually because another blog I liked linked to them. I will go over, read a post or two, read their about page if they have one, and if I like what I see I will add them to my Bloglines reader. Then, what tends to happen, I will read their posts for a couple of weeks and generally find they are not to my tastes. I will then remove them from my feed. Okay, John is not like that. I am finding all his posts interesting and informative. But that is not what this was supposed to be about. John has a post today about a 40+ year old grandmother who lost 140 lbs....

it begins with a new template. I thought I was really happy with the old template, when suddenly I just decided it was time for something new. Hmmm..... Funny how that works.

I've been really feeling kind of down this week and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of worrying about money and I'm tired of thinking about how I have to find a job. I've been quiet and not myself and I don't like it. So I'm done. Starting right now things change. I'm going to do everything I can to find a job but I'm not going to worry and stress over it. I can only do what I can do. I can't make people hire me or like me or even get back to me. I'm going to keep track of the jobs I apply for, make follow up calls, do all that good stuff but I'm not going to stress over it. When I was listening to Eckhart Tolle talk about The New Earth, one thing he said was to set aside a time everyday (or whenever) to make future plans. Don't live in the future. Don't dwell on it constantly. Just set aside time to do it. That's what I'm going to do. I'll set aside 1 hour everyday to look for work, send out apps, follow up, ...

That's one thing about my down moods, they don't really last that long. I woke this morning planning ways to fight my way out of it. I got a comment on the last post from the very lovely Vivica . She said, and I quote, depression is anger turned inward . I love that, and how true is it!! I am angry. I'm angry that things aren't working out the way I want them to. I'm angry that my work let me go instead of putting me on part time. I'm angry I haven't been able to find a job yet. I'm angry that I have to get a job. I'm angry that I have to worry about money like I am. It's true, I am angry. Do you know how freeing that is?? So I'm going to use this new found knowledge and anger and channel it toward the things I want. I want a job that pays well and is flexible enough to accommodate my schooling. I want a job that involves teaching in some capacity. I will channel this anger into good. Right now I have to channel myself into th...

I think I'm getting down because I don't have a job and I don't really have any prospects. This is not good. For my finances or for my butt. I get down, I don't move, I eat. Definitely not good. I don't know what I'm going to do. Starting to freak out just a little bit. You would not believe my strong aversion to candy now. I can't even look at a piece of candy without getting all creepy. That headache was so bad I don't ever want to have anything like that again. I don't know exactly what caused it and I may be laying the blame on candy for no reason, but ugh!!! I never want that to happen again. Irene had a very good post yesterday about the Obama inauguration. I watched and thought it was good. Anyone who reads this blog knows I'm not an Obama fan but I do hope he proves me wrong. I hope he fixes everything and I will shout from the rooftops how wrong I was about him. But that's not the reason I brought this up. Monday was M...

I'm not a huge candy person, but once in a while I like it. Yesterday someone gave me a bag of M&M's. Now I am not a candy person but who doesn't like M&M's? After lunch I went ahead and ate it figuring my blood sugar could handle the hit due to the carbs and protein I had for lunch. Ummm.......wrong!! Within an hour I had the beginning of a headache. At 1 1/2 hours I was hungry, even though I had a big, healthy lunch. By the end of the night my head was killing me and I was nauseous and couldn't eat dinner. I ended up going to bed early just because of the pain. I took ibuprofen and nothing helped. It was miserable. When I woke this morning I had vestiges of the headache but the majority of it was gone. After having my morning coffee and protein shake I appear to be fine. That's it. Candy is out. I don't eat candy much anyway, a mint here or there, but no more. I am done with candy. It clearly doesn't like me and I don't lik...

School started today. So I was up at 4:30, working out by 5, out of the house by 7. I was in the high school for 3.5 hours. Home for a lunch. Then it was off to grad school. I just got home from there. Monday and Tuesday are going to be long days. The good news is I did get up and got my workout in before it all began. I kicked my own butt. My hamstrings and butt are sore from Mondays workout. Fun stuff. Tomorrow is a cardio day. I'm not sure if I'll get a run in with the sore muscles I'm having. So I was thinking of doing something I have not done in almost two years. I was going to dig out my GPS and go geocaching. I have not done that in well over two years and I think I would love to do that. It's fun because you are hiking but it's hiking with a purpose. You use your GPS to find hidden treasure. It is fun. Lots of hidden 'treasures' on the trails here. I just may do that tomorrow. It would be a lot of fun.

running today? Two little words. Two little words that greeted me this morning when I checked my blogs. Two little words left by MizFit , a fitness/blogging diva of celebrity status. Two little words that changed everything I had planned for this morning. As I said in last night's post I put off my run yesterday. Then, in the middle of the night my TOM arrived. As I approach menopause (which can come anytime I'm ready) things are getting worse and worse. More cramps, heavier, etc. Plus the first 24-36 hours are the worse. I try to stay near the house during these times because I just never know how it's going to be. If I need to go out I do have some medicine I can take but I only do that in extreme emergencies. So when this happened at 3 am, I thought to myself that's it for my run. I'm not doing 6 miles in this condition. So I get up this morning, turn on my computer and get smacked with those two words, running today? Ugh!!! I still knew that running ...

It has been one of those weekends. It's been cold here. Yes, I know, 69 degrees is not cold. Well, if you live in Hawaii it is. I've spent the last 3 days in sweats and socks and long sleeve shirts. It's been cold. Today was a little warmer. I had shorts on most of the afternoon. But come 4 pm it started getting cold again, back on went the sweats. Yesterday I took a rest day so that I would be fresh today. Well, today I got up and just did not feel 6 miles. Just didn't feel it. I decided to put my run off until later only to get into a cleaning frenzy and not get a run in at all. Oh well. I may run tomorrow, I don't know yet. I have to do something tomorrow though. I've had 2 days off. Anymore and I'll need to check out those fat burners I see advertised everywhere. Wait, didn't I talk about this yesterday?? Oh, oh. Do I sense a trend. That's all I got. I've been cleaning all day and I'm tired. I want to sit and watch Desp...