Step Away From the Cake

Last weekend I was feeling down and bloated and a little bit like I didn't know what to do. I had also gained for 3 weeks in a row at WW. Not a lot, but up is the wrong direction. Last Saturday I put on a pair of shorts I wear all the time and they felt tight and uncomfortable and I just couldn't wear them. Well, I have spent the week putting real effort into my workouts, weighing and tracking everything that enters my mouth, and avoiding junk food. It has paid off. I was down 2 lbs this week and I'm sitting here in the shorts I couldn't wear last week :) All that anal retentive stuff this week was worth it. I will probably do it again this week. It's not that hard. I keep track of everything in my WW journal, then log it onto the computer at night. I've also been wearing my HRM when I work out to get a better idea of the amount of calories I expend. I don't take the HRM calories at face value, I generally lower them about 10% or so since I don'...

HPU was mailing my acceptance package. It was in the mail today when I got home :) I felt like such a fool having melted down like that. I'm going to put in down to hormones and call it a day. Wow, talk about overreacting!!

I think my hormones were out of control yesterday. Either that or I just did not realize how much I want to go to school and how much I really want to teach. Weird, I know, but true. But enough of that, let's move on. I'm a firm believer in the fact that things work out the way they are supposed to. So I'm confident it will all work out. Besides, I now have a Plan B :) I got a Strassburg Sock yesterday. My chiro thinks it will help with my heel problem. How annoying do you think that thing is when you're sleeping?? You are right. Also, by midnight my toes are all squished together and hurting. Yea, that sucks. A. Lot..... I ripped it off in the middle of the night and that's not easy to do. But it does appear to help. My heel did not hurt this morning. I will continue to use it until I master this darn thing. Grrr..... I've also started a stretching program. One of the problems with my heel is that my calf is so tight. The chiro gave me heel a...

ugh!!! I wish I could compartmentalize my life. I wish I could keep work separate from working out separate from finances separate from things I want to do, like that. I woke this morning feeling no so hot. It's that time of the month and I was feeling kind of crappy. I decided to put off my strength training to tomorrow but thought some time on the elliptical would be a good idea. So I hopped on and did 30 grueling minutes. It was good and I was proud of myself. Then I went to check my email. I've been waiting to hear if I've been accepted to graduate school. As of last week they had not received my letters of recommendation. Since the 2 people I originally asked were not available, I quickly contacted 2 more people. I know for a fact they were mailed last Wednesday and the school should have gotten them by Thursday. School starts Sept 2nd, which is less then 2 weeks away, and I'm getting a little antsy to know if I'm going to school or not. So last ni...

I wish I could nail down the formula for motivation. If not for everyone at least for me. I'm not sure exactly where it comes from, or goes for that matter. I know when I've lost it I would give anything to get it back. And when I have it it propels me forward into territory I like living in. So why can't I keep it all the time? Maybe it's just remnants of my old habits. I used to be a binge eater. I never called it that and probably never admitted it even to myself, but I was. I would go on a binge and eat till my stomach hurt and I was sick to my stomach. The entire time I would be screaming inside my head 'why are you doing this?? STOP!!STOP!!' yet I would continue on as if something else had control of my body. I did eventually manage to break that habit. It took time and basically it was making the binges shorter and shorter until now when 2 cookies can constitute a binge :) Maybe my loss of motivation is like my binge eating. I used to be i...

and I love it. I love how I feel when I'm eating right and working out hard. I love how my body feels and how my brain seems to function better. I was reading a blog by someone who has officially given up on the whole weight loss thing. This person says they want to stop feeling bad about themselves for not doing the things they know they should. That weighing and measuring food is not something they can live with. That exercising is just not something they want to do. I read that and felt kind of sad for that person. When I work out and eat right things just seem to go better. Health wise things are always much better. I feel more accepting of myself and my body. I feel more motivated to tackle other things in my life that are unrelated to working out and eating. Everything just seems so much better when I'm taking care of myself. And that doesn't mean I have to be losing weight necessarily, it just means I have to take the time to take care of myself and then...

The cord for my dirt cheap elliptical came today. Yes!!! I'm very excited. It takes time but the change is coming around. I worked out a very doable training plan this weekend. I'm logging every bite I eat. I'm already starting to feel it. I'm feeling better and the workouts are starting to click. I have no doubt by the end of the week I will be completely back in the proper head space. Yes!!! My heel is healing too. I did a little tiny bit of running on the trail on Sunday and it was a tiny bit sore today, but not bad. I think we are making progress. I ordered one of those silly PF socks to wear. The chiro says it will definitely help to keep pressure on the heel all night. I've got to get this heel fixed and soon. I will be doing 2 marathons in 6 months and I am not going to be one of those strollers taking 8 hours to do a marathon. Been there. Done that. Ain't doing it again. Okay, dinner is almost ready and I'm hungry. The important...

I got into a long conversation the other day with this 24 year old child who did not remember before the Internet. Their entire realm of experience involves the Internet. They grew up with computers, Google, email, etc..... Wow!! Have I gotten old or what?? Then, this afternoon I'm looking around online for something and I stumbled across Johnson & Johnson's website. Again, Wow!!! I remember J&J from when I was growing up. We always had baby powder in the house and No More Tears Shampoo, God I loved that stuff :) Anyway, as I'm cruising around their site a couple of things struck me. First, I didn't realize they are all the brands they are; Acuvue, Tylenol, Splenda, just to name a few. Second, they really are a leader in the healthcare innovation field. It's truly amazing. They are more then 120 years old!! They are over 250 companies operating in 57 countries. I know, I know, I sound like a commercial for J&J, but it really took me by surp...

I've been doing a lot of self evaluation this weekend. As you may have guessed I'm going through a really rough spot and I need to get my head on straight before anything else will straighten out. So I took some time out this morning and went hiking. I swear, there is nothing like being in the great outdoors to put things into perspective and get my head back in the right place. Hopefully things will be better from here on out, not perfect, but definitely better. As I was hiking, the same trail I hike a lot, I saw this: I noticed the red. Then it dawned on me what it was and I couldn't believe it. It's a little blurry but it's a red pick up truck. How the heck did it get there? It seems like it's been there for a while. I did not think there was a road behind this trail but I had to look up on the topo map to be sure. There isn't. I can not even begin to imagine how that car got there. The really exciting part of this hike was that I felt so good w...