Step Away From the Cake

Wow, I feel my lethargy lifting and it's feeling really good. Whatever it is that has been dragging me down for the past couple of weeks is starting to pass, I can feel it. I know part of the solution was giving into it instead of fighting it. If I fight it it takes forever to pass but if I accept it and just roll with it it usually passes pretty quickly; and it is starting to pass....... Although I've never been officially diagnosed I believe I suffer from depression. Clearly it's not bad enough to keep me down and I've never been one to take drugs for any length of time but I do think it's a demon I wrestle with. Again, part of getting out of it is realizing what's going on and just rolling with it. If I spend 2 days sleeping in and lolling on the couch by the 3rd day I'm ready to get up and fight. But if I don't give in and try to keep it at bay, it will drag me down for as long as I fight. I believe it has a set course to run and it will run t

Where did the week go??? The days are speeding by too darn quick lately..... SLOW DOWN!!! Well, I developed a plan on Sunday but haven't been able to stick to it as well as I wanted to. But you know what?? That's okay. I'm doing the best I can and right now that's all I can ask. I'm walking the dogs every morning and night and if that's all the additional exercise I get for right now I'll live. This crazy, lethargic period will pass and I'll be back working out all the time. I have made a committment to not miss any more marathon training and that's where my focus is right now. I really want to get back into strength training but it's just not happening right now. That's okay!! It will come again..... That sleeping thing is really working except I find myself staying up a little later than I'm used too or, worse yet, falling asleep on the couch and those things seem to be throwing things off.... But I make it through the day not c

I picked up this book Friday night. I'm looking for a new workout. I want to focus on running and am looking for something to compliment that. Anyway, this whole program sounds pretty good and not too strenous so it won't interfer with my running. Anywho, he has a small piece on sleep that really, really struck me. I am the type of person that absolutely positively has to have 8 hours of sleep; any less and it can get darn ugly. So he says that since your REM sleep cycle is about 90 minutes you need to time your sleep and waking patterns so that you are getting up at the end of one of you REM cycles. So for the past couple of nights I've been timing my wake-up so that I'm getting up at the end of sleep cycle and it seems to be working. I wake up more refreshed and get up a lot easier. We'll see how it goes as the week goes on but it seems to be working for now. Now, on to training. I got up this morning and did my Core workout then went to my marathon training

And that's pretty much wheat I've been doing lately; making decisions by not making any decisions. For the past 2 weeks I haven't been doing much of anything. I've been reading the blogs and it seems lots of folks are having trouble with motivation, inspiration, mojo, whatever you want to call it so at least I don't feel all alone. However, I really thought the other bloggers were going through it because of being on the mainland and the fall starting. But I'm here in Hawaii we don't have seasons (well, not with huge temperature flucuations anyway) so why is this effecting me???? I don't have the answer; I really don't know what's happening but I do know I need to get off my ass and get over this. Since the Na Wahine 2 weeks ago I've only run 4 times (I should have run 6) and walked the dogs. That's it! That's all!! What the hell am I thinking?? Yesterday I went for my marathon training. We ran for 2 hours and I thought I wa